Waiting for Motive

[The following is a recent transcript from my internal monologue]

I should probably get up out of bed today. But why would I, there is nothing important I need to do today. Well I need to write a blog post for English. But what do I write it on? I don't want to write anything. It says here I should write on my Silent book club book, but that's no fun. That does not get me out of bed in the morning. What should I write about?!?

My day... too personal. My year... too cliche. Flying Cars... irrelevant. Waiting for Godot...ehh maybe if I get desperate.  

I don't know what to write. Do I even know how to write? Did I forget how to spell, how to speak how to write? What happened to the grammar worksheets, the spelling tests, the random rules of English. How i is before e except after c but that was never true because there was always words like weird and seize that broke those rules. But why did I learn that in school if it was so wrong? There were so many exceptions to rules in school, whether it be math, science, English, social studies. Why make a rule when there are exceptions to them? Why make guidelines when they are meant to be broken? Why make prompts when there is a way to avoid them? 

Maybe I should get up out of bed and just do that homework. But I can't... I'm waiting for my motive